Hollerrrrr from the NYC locationnnn. worddd up. lol just kidding. Kinda... So let us begin. It is a Wednesday evening at the moment. I just returned from Yoga which was absolutely lovely and now I feel revived, refreshed, ready to go! Unfortunately I have no where to go.. But it's alright I do have plans for tomorrow and Friday. Yay me. My roomie isn't doing anything either but i don't feel like talking to her at ze moment. Having roommates you're not bffs with is a strange thing. Last year I feel like we never walked out of the room without being like hey this is where I'm going. I feel so awkward and disorientated. I'm totally bugging out yo! I think the biggest adjustment for me this year will be getting used to the fact that I don't have someone to go with me ..everywhere. Like dinner?! Both of my roomies are planning to cook every meal so that is out of the question. Idk.. but like not everyone on my floor has moved in yet.. I haven't seen ANYONE so who knows what lies ahead in the next few weeks.. or months. OH! I can't believe I forgot to tell you the craziest story when we were chatting earlier:
Okay so yesterday morning I planned to go to the gym. My blinds don't close all the way and my room looks out into other Palladium rooms, and I dont wanna be called the skank of Palladium yet so I decided to change in my closet(please note at this point that my dresser bumps out millimeters away from my closet door). I go to reopen the door a few minutes later.. but the door won't budge. and then i start to freak out because I have to pee and i'm locked in my closet(note that I realize it won't open because one of my drawers is open a lil and the door cant get past the drawer). So I take my suitcase down and get a little bit of a running start and smash it into the door again and again thinking that weak little me can actually break down the fucking like steel door with my suitcase. Time for plan B. I start looking for vents.. no luck. I look for a place that I can pee without being too gross.. I call out to my suitemate since my roomie wasnt home.. but no answer. and then i'm fuck plan B I am not sitting i here all day so I start screaming HELLLPPPPP CECILIAAAAAAA and banging on the walls and door. And finally she's like are you okay?! and i'm like NO I AM NOT OKAY IM LOCKED IN MY CLOSET! but she can't get into my room because the individual rooms lock by themselves and I had closed the door. So she's like hold on! I'll go get help! So like 15 minutes later I'm rescued by fat maintnence men who are laughing hysterically at me and were like haha we thought your roommate was joking!

Isn't that just redonkulous?! Now i'm afraid of my closet!

Next order of business, i was thinking that your and aaron's relationship resemble that of my aunt and unlce who dated in high school.. and then broke up because he was a ladies man and she couldn't handle it.. and so they dated other people and then went to college separately, but always kept in touch because despite it all they knew they really loved eachother. After college they started dating again.. on and off and eventually my uncle chilled out and they are the most obnoxiously happy couple! It just got me thinking that I know it feels like life consists of high school and college and then u better make a decision because it's all down hill from there.. but really we're just starting to begin life. We still haven't truly entered the quote on quote "real world" yet.. and you have plenty of time to make big life decisions after college. It's harder because he's doing shit with his life right now so he doesn't have a lot to do/a lot going for him.. but you do. And i'm sure you feel like well if you don't act now you'll lose him.. But honestly if it's meant to work out in the end it will. You shouldnt feel like you need to rush just because he might not be there when you're ready because if he respects you and you're dreams and wants to be part of that then he will be there. You need to meet other guys and date other guys because you don't have much to compare him too.. and then I think you'll have a clearer perspective on what you want. Because if all you wanted was him, you wouldn't be in this situation. Idk.. I mean personally I find this whole situation to be really complicated and that's why I keep thinking about it lol because I want to help you find a solution but.. I really think you need to just start out by being honest with him and bearing your soul because you're on such different wavelengths, communication is the only way you can help understand each other. .. And you need to get it off your chest and then go and enjoy FUCKING FLORENCE!! Do what you came there to do.. go talk to the natives, become fluent! Learn everything there is to know about the city and the culture! And i'm totally in the same boat with you on that one.. i mean I live in new york city and i'm fucking sitting in my dorm bed at 10 at night blogging like a total lame ass. But we'll get through it :) This semester is gonna fly by.

okayy sorry this post was like a YEAR long but I have nothing else to do and no one else to talk to wahh wahhhh wahhhhhhh.
Peace&Love