Life without you is kinda like The Hills episode 7...

Okay so I began this blog with the intention of watching the Hills episode 7 simultaneously. I figured that since this particular episode does not involve Lauren OR Whitney I would be able to give it approximately 15% of my attention without missing much - but of course I can't find it anywhere (and by "anywhere" I mean YouTube because I am not a brilliant Google-er like yourself and am not able to find anything and everything online).
Life life life - I just got back from a short little trip to Milan. It was really beautiful and I loved the big city feel (I got you a postcard, don't worry). G-baby has a friend who is studying there (a Sternie!) and we went to stay with her. We went to a really nice dinner (champagne, rose wine, AND red wine - I was in drunkO heaven) then went to a chill bar. Normally, this would be an okay night, but I am in the process of getting really sick since I have pretty much been nonstop partying since I arrived and my body is about ready to drop dead. When I do go out, the only thing that keeps me up is a good amount of alcohol, but I did not want to spend 25+euro just to get drunk and just hang out in a bar. Therefore, I remained extremely sober throughout the experience, and sat there coughing, freezing and with a disgustingly pink eye (yes it is STILL like that, and is becoming a dominating force in my life). All these factors made me super pissy and I even snapped @ my friend Kitty-Kat!! (Katrina - she has been in quite a few of our pictures of late and is the new addition to the craziness)
To be fair, she had totally be taunting me all night because we have this little friendly competition going for Sr. Willem. It's an ongoing thing and I enjoy it normally, but for the whole trip she would relate EVERYTHING I said to my relationship with Willem.
Per esempio -
D: "The sky is really pretty today"
K: "Ya I bet you thinking about Willem, huh?"
D: "Wtf?"
- okay it was never anything this extreme but I can't think of a legit example so you're just going to have to trust me. Basically the whole situation made me angry because I feel like we're ALWAYS talking about Sr. Willem. This bothers me because I understand that we're only obsessing because we are seriously into the kid and that rubs me the wrong way. Not only is he really unlike any guy I've ever fallen for (aka Aaron), every girl seems to become an idiot around him. And you know how I hate to like the guys that everyone likes...
Ugh, I hate that he gets to me so much. I hate that he gets to every girl so much. AND I especially hate that this whole situation is so significant that I must recount it in the blog. I would much rather be his friend because I can feel myself turning into a silly little girl, ya know like when we were in middle school and your day can be good or bad depending on what your crush said to you?? Ya, that's how I feel and it pisses me off soooooo much.
So the point is that this whole thing makes me super touchy and I kinda snapped at Kat when she mentioned something about him at drinks - I later apologized.

On a smiley-er note....I have set plans for Fall Break. 1. Brussels for the weekend (waffles) 2. Amsterdam for a few days (weed) 3. Barcelona for Halloween (party, party) I am very excited! And please note I am NOT going to Greece so that we can go next semester :)
September 30th is coming up - it's a big day for us!! First of all, we find out that you're coming here FOR SURE and second, we must begin Project Starvation Part Deux: better known as "It's Britney Bitch". This is my game plan - not eat anything all day (this is easy since there is nothing to eat anywhere convenient), workout right before dinner (so that my body is in burning calories mode and not "ho fame!" mode), begin dinner with a lot of salad, come back for ONE bowl of pasta, leave dining hall with ONE piece of bread and piece of fruit. I'm thinking this will be a success. Of course, the first week will be "Ah Devil!" but soon our bodies will get used to the situation and hottness, here we come! Please respond with your game-plan ASAP.

On a sad-er note (for me @ least)...I think Aaron is ready to let me go. He sent me an e-mail about a week ago that said he felt I was just using him as a "safety net" for whenever I come back home and need someone. I told him that this was completely untrue, because being with him was anything but easy, but he just doesn't understand how I can love him but not want to come back to Texas. He said "Do you really expect me to wait for you throughout this whole Florence thing only to find out that you're going to go back to New York anyways?" The boy has a good point, yes, but I wish he would understand that I don't want to be in New York so I can be with other guys etc etc - I know he's perfect if I want to settle down and have a relationship. I just never wanted that to be a part of my life (@ least not for a long-ass time). The problem is he's ready NOW, and wants to follow the "normal" pattern of things. I have no idea what I want instead of Texas, but I don't want to move back until I've figured it out. Sometimes I think being "normal" would be the greatest thing in the world (especially if it was with him), but then I get a little taste of my other options and I just can't imagine life anyway else. So hopefully I won't wake up one day and feel like I made the wrong choice - but how can he really expect me to leave all this for a relationship that is as shady and destructive as ours? Yes, I love our relationship, but it's just not solid enough to bet my future on. He hung up on me the last time we chatted and I have since e-mailed him to tell him to let me know when he wants to talk again (he's apparently going through some rough stuff @ home and I told him there's no need to burn bridges with me just because everything else is shitty) but knowing him that might not be for a long-ass time. Or I'll be showing up at his front door sometime in December.

I still need to know what your life will be like over Christmas break.
Respond ASAP, lovebug.
I hope this weekend was fabulous and that the Fergusons are doing lovely :)
Ciao ciao

P.s. Could you start teaching me some French? Seriously, the only phrases I can think of in French come from Disney movies.... "Heeeheeeheee Haahaahaa" and "Bonjour! ..Bonjour! ..Bonjour! Bonjour! Bonjour!" for example....