bonjour by Sarah Ferguson

Hey lady. well gee wiz that's the longest thing ive read since like.. idk when! when it sounds like you had quite an amazing and interesting time.. to say the least.. and i'm officially jealous! & of course your could be coming out story would be in the red light district of Amsterdam..you can't do anything the way normal people do things can you?! lol but i guesss that's what i heart about you :) I want to hear about barcelona! & an explanation for why you were not wearing a costume in any picture you've posted. !

Anywhoo, well last week was supposed to be the best week ever. But i was very blue last week. So i had to drag myself out of my room to do anything but i'm glad I did. The costume party at the Met was tuesday and there weren't that many people there but it was fun hiding from Museum Guy and stuff. Also, my new kind of friend Caroline, who me & Stephanie met at a party at the Chelsea Art Museum was there and she said her boyfriend leaves her alone at parties a lot so she can go pick up girls (as friends) because her best friend from last year left her to go to a cheaper school and she has no friends. But guess what her bff's name is?!?! NELL! Isn't that strange?? I was like shuutttt upp! OKAY next, was the party at Saks. There was a red carpet. It was fancy schmancy.. we got pear martinis & champagne served by male models ( & all i could think of when Samantha fucks Smith when he's a coctail waiter at a party & i was like I need to make a move! But in real life cocktail waiters are gaygaygay) annnndd Duffy performed! you know the one who sings Mercy? she was hella cute with her little welsh accent! So then it was Halloween and Cat (my exbestfriend turned friend again) was supposed to come but her Dad dies tuesday ( :( ) so obvs she didn't come. And i had no idea what i was doing because nobody I know knew what they were doing either. But i ended up going to a party in WIlliamsburg with Stephanie and a few others. One of these others, Rachel, is nice-ish, but she's a rich snobby bitch too. She was like ugghh I'm bored. This sucks. let's go. this is lame. (even though it was perfectly fine. & they had a keg & i was happy) so we leave cuz she has another party to take us to back in Manhattan. but as soon as we get off the L, she's like uggh i'm tired so I'm just gonna go back to Gramercy(it's 11pm) and we were like YOU DRAGGED US ALL THE WAY BACK & NOW YOU"RE DITCHING US!?!? but we didnt really say that. so we went to that party & it waas really awk. cuz it was the Equestrian team party(yes.. we have one?) so they all knew ea.other and the girl who lived there was like .. i dont like that all these random ppl keep coming! so ..we left and went BACK to the B-K-L-Y-N. to another party. supposedly with jungle juice. but alas when we got there it was almost all gone & the rest of the night was a BYOB .. which we didn't know. So sober Sarah was not happy. & eventually we left. & before going back to my dorm i bought a whole bag of reeces & ate almost the whole thing myself. Then i went to bed & 2 hours later went to catch a bus back home. & of course the bus was stuck in traffic so I missed Cat's dads funeral! so much for trying to be a good friend! but i still saw her and she was happy just that i was there & then we threw her a lil halloween bash with a few close friends, who i havent seen in a while so it was lovely. And i got drunk. and i was happy. & for the first time i didnt want to leave warwick. Danielle, i kid you not.. I cried while saying goodbye to my parents! I was like who AM I?! but again, I'm depressed so there you go! I think it's just because i have such high highs like going to fashion events and meeting people who i idolize and blahblahblah but at the end of the day i'm just lonely again and it's such a shift & it's fucking with my emotions! Like.. I can't even think about my birthday. I have no clue what to do.. who to invite.. i was thinking Karoke cuz you don't need ids and it's fun but then Stephanie turned her nose up at that idea.. & i feel like i could just stay inside all day on my birthday and no one would caaarrree! & you know how much i love my birthday. oh well. my debbie downer rant is now over.

But.. i didnt tell you! The other day i went to Marquee with my friend Anna.. & i waltzed in & her ID didnt scan so the bouncer took it! & then made her slip him 50$ to get it back! and then we went to Suzie Wongs(finally.. but it sucks inside... i mean the bathrooms are unisex.. EW!) and she walked in and the bouncer there took MY id!! & he was like we both know this isnt you. Give me 20$ & ill let you in but don't make it obvious. what a slimeball. I'm getting brown colored contacts. end of story.

Anyways, i just wanna say that i dont think you realize how much i miss your crazy self! & i loovee youuu & please take pictures of your brown hair on photobooth asap. & OMG BARACK OBAMA.. TOMORROW!! if he loses, please move out of America with me? kthx.



PS-- guess who had a huge guest starring role on Gossip Girl tonight?... STELLA!!! i was like lalalal-I KNOW HER!!!